I am what He calls me.

It has been only two weeks and two days since I left the states to go on an adventure with the Lord, and it is crazy to look back on the past two weeks and think, "it's been two weeks." It as gone by so fast but yet there has been a grace to be able to enjoy every moment and capture it through the Lord's eye's. So I guess you could say that yes, it has been the Lord's perfect timing.

While being here in El Salvador, God has been giving me revelation of who He is in me, which makes me who I am. I am a missionary who carries the Spirit of God in and with me everywhere that I go. When I go to different places, it is He that shines thru me.  Not me and what I can do, but Him and what He can do thru me.  I am not an ordinary girl that dreams of one day being in the nations showing the Love of an Unrelenting Father. I am different.I am one who is used to show every person I see, the Love, Grace, and Forgiveness of an Unrelenting Father. I am a young women of God who co-dreams with her Father and does not sit and wait for a door to open, but recognizes the path that the Lord has placed in front of her and runs on it with Him.  I am a daughter of a Father who loves NO MATTER WHAT. I am a daughter of my Father, and I so desire to look just like Him. 

Funny thing is, I thought I knew who I was, but then I opened my eye's to how He see's me, and it is a whole different picture. 

I say all of this to encourage you to ask God who you are to Him, what is your true identity in Him?  

Now that I know just a part of who I am, my whole view and outlook of what God has called me too has a whole new twist and adventure to it.  I know that when He gives me a dream, it is not for my too only dream about, but to do something with it, to do something about it.  He has given me these passions and dreams for a reason, I will NO longer sit back. I will get up and walk. I won't let my choice be to do nothing, and paralyze me.

There is so much more to Him, and I cannot wait to go deeper with Him...

 

With His Love,

Mary Lenke

Toxic Tears

The name of this blog is, "Voices of the Unheard".  Before leaving for Romania back in July, the Lord spoke this  quote to me so clearly.  I had no clue what exactly it is for, and i still a, not sure to what extent the Lord wants me to use it.  However, over these past two journey's with the Lord, He has revealed a small portion to me.

While in Romania, I would talk to the teens and listen to their unique stories of their life.  As I looked into their eyes, I could see the tears begin to well up.  Especially in my "sister" Eny.  As she would begin to cry, I sensed a feeling of relief and peace.  Through tears, she shared with me things she never told anyone, a voice was finally heard.  Although her heart may not be set afire for God just yet, she is hungry for more of Him and His love.

Now with being in Peru, the Lord has shown me so much more with this quote.

On Wednesday, 6 of my 11 team members packed a small bag to head to a town near the jungle for two days.  On this little "escapade", we were set out to minister to about 50 young adults from ages 13-25.  The camp name was called "Camp Jordan", signifying it being time to cross over the Jordan and begin a new season with the Lord.  They sat in sessions with themes of the following:
Day 1: Repentance and Forgiveness
Day 2: Divine Plan for your Life & the Cross
Day 3: Holy Spirit
I had the honor and privilege to speak for the forgiveness session.  (I must first say that the Lord has blessed me with a story and gifts that glorify Him in a way that is unique.  Especially in the area of His love, grace, and forgiveness and I am so thankful that He would use me and trust me with this unique ministry). I spoke about the depth of the Lord's forgiveness for us and that we need also to forgive ourselves; that we are to see ourselves as the Father see's us and that is that we are worth His love, grace, and forgiveness.  I also shared with them that the Lord did not die on the cross for us, but He died on the cross as us.  So if we are not forgiving ourselves, then we are completely missing the reason we He died. I also boldly, yet lovingly told them that if we have unforgiveness in our hearts, whether its with ourselves or with others, then we are hindering ourselves in going further with the Lord.

At the end, the team and the leaders began praying over these young adults and they just began to weep before the Lord.  As they crumbled in out arms, language was no longer a barrier.  They trusted us to hold them as they came abandoned and broken to the Lord.

That's not all, the following day, we had a sit down where two of the adult leaders shared their testimonies on forgiveness. The young adults again began to weep before the Lord and cry out to Him for His love and forgiveness.  We saw both guys and ladies just weep before the Lord.  As we held them and prayed of them, chains began to fall.

I had to take a step back because I felt the Lord showing me something.  When I took a step back I saw this:
When these young adults were crying, they did not have to say a thing, but the tears that they shed explained their life stories and the hurt that they have gone through. That when they were crying, each tears represented a word do that when they were done crying, a story was told.

As He showed me this, I thought about the quote, "Voices of the Unheard".  I got another piece of what this means.  The unheard voices are the tears of the Lord's people crying out for His love, forgiveness, and grace. I was blown away when He shared this with me.

I spoke with Paula (her and her husband Tom are the founders of Mission Outfitters), and she said that there is a scientific thing that happens when people cry.  The Lord made us to that when we cry, it releases chemicals through our tears so when we catch our breath and stop crying, we feel relieved - Toxic Tears.

Come on somebody! God is so good!!

The day after was the session on Holy Spirit where the young adults got filled with Holy Spirit and some even slain in the Spirit.  After, we had a time of rejoicing worship and thanks to the Lord.  It seriously was the best ever.


On top of all that, when we left Iquitos, about 20 of the young adults, came to say goodbye and send us off.  Seriously the best send off I have ever had.  I will definitely be back to grow in these relationships that the Lord has connected me with. And pour into more lives of Peruvians.

Esperanza en Cristo

wow wow wow!!! I have only been in Peru for 2 days and the Lord has allowed me to see some amazing things!

Today we loaded our bags and headed to the jungle of San Pedro! What an adventure! I will say though, that the Lord knows how to stretch me in the smallest things.  I will clue you in. ;]] I personally do NOT like being all wet. Well, what do ya know, it rained all morning and afternoon until about 1:30.  So my team and myself got all soaked while waiting for the boat, on the boat ride, and taking the 30 minute hike to the church that was in the legit jungle.  While I was walking though, the Lord spoke so softly to me. He was just showing me a deeper part of His heart and beauty. It was so serene walking through the jungle.  All I could hear was the rain dropping in the river and on the tree's, the sounds of the monkey's and bird's, and the pureness of the Lord's voice.  I have never felt so peaceful in my life. And other than the occasional slip and walking through a mini river, there was nothing that could take me away from the serenity that the Lord brought me into.

When we arrived at the church, everyone was so welcoming. Always greeted with a hug and kiss on the cheek (my kind of people).  The service was phenomenal, the joy and gratefulness that the people had was such a blessing.  And come to find out, they had been praying for a rainfall because they had not had rain in quite awhile and they needed some cool days to finishing drilling the well and building the latrine.  I could just feel and hear the Lord chuckling and saying, "Silly daughter, do not pay attention to the simple things that may distract you, enter in my peace and we will learn so much more." So I guess I have kind of figured out what the Lord wants to do with me in this trip, and that is to learn to hear His on a more intimate level. And if that means walking through a jungle while it is pouring down rain, I will take it! :]]

Last but not least. :]] I was able to briefly share my testimony at a church service tonight and also sing. :]] It was such a blessing and honor to do that.  I am learning more and more that my story is to be told because of the amount of grace and forgiveness that is in my life from the Lord.

God has big plans for this trip and team!! I can not wait to see how it all ends up!!

Please keep us in prayer as we begin our busy week and amazing works for Papa! :]]

these pictures. are super big. its late, so they can just stay big. :]] lol
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Never forget where you found the Lord; you may come across a person that needs to hear about the Hope of Glory and what He did in your life when you cried out. "Abba!".  Everyone has an inheritance and sonship/daughtership from the Lord. Never forget that. Everyone deserves to hear about Him.

With His Love,
Mary Lenke